Drink It All Away

Everyday I wake as I went to sleep,
Wanting, Ready to kill the light,
Afraid to hurt someone I, just, weep,

I keep walking and walking,
I lie, I lie, it’s alright, I’m alright,
But it’s not true...

Only pain hides what I feel inside,
I’m ready to lose the fight,
I’m so sick of how I feel inside,

So I drink it all away,
...
And so I drink it all away,
...
So I drink it all away,
...
And so I drink it all away,

Some people think they’re so wise,
But I seem to be the only one who knows,
For me there is no paradise,

I can’t wait, no I can’t wait,
Tomorrow may be for you,
But today is enough for me,
Yesterday was already too late,

Some say “look to the future”,
“Where everything will be ok”,
But I only see gray,
My future only holds a grave,

So I drink it all away,
...
And so I drink it all away,
...
So I drink it all away,
...
And so I drink it all away,

What can I say? what can I say?
There is only one thing I want,
A bed in where I can lay...

I dream, dreams of you and me...
But I can never escape,
Run from what’s inside me,

I’ve been holding on, for too long,
But I’m not that strong,
And that’s why I say,
“I can’t go on”...

There is something wrong, it’s true...
I call for help, but nobody listens,
I scream but no one listens!
Nobody cares.. I’m sure that’s unfair,

So I drink it all away,
I scream it all, again and again,
But I can only drink it away,
Slowly killing, the pain…
Drifting away...

Runner

Run! Run never look back,
Run! Run from all these nightmares,
Run! Run from my forever hidden past,
Run! Run away to the end of time,

I run, never stop, never ever face my fears,
I know some day I must look back and face my broken past,
For now I know there is no stopping me,
Nobody will ever stop me, not them and not even you,

No! No! No! I’ll never stop!!!
I will never stop!!!

Back then I looked all around me, but all I saw was the world crushing down,
Never had any where to go, I was just in the middle of everything,
Now all I hear are just some broken memories, of you screaming in my head,
And I know no matter what I do, it will just be thrown to the ground,

I know what I did, I know what I lived
I know I will never remember my past,
I don’t want to, I don’t have to,
And now you know why I run.

No need to say,
I know I’m a runner.


(Written on September 2013)

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A faceless man,
A fake .--. . .-. ... --- -. .- .-.. .. - -.--
He is what it fits better,
It’s a lie he tells .... .. -- ... . .-.. ..-.
More than .... . / - . .-.. .-.. ... / .. - / - --- you,

You may - .... .. -. -.- it’s wrong,
But don’t curse at him,
He ain’t the only --- -. .

Hatter

-.. . . .-. / ... .--. .. .-. .. -

Walking through the streets,
With a human face,
I see what they don’t seem to be able to see,
I see monsters,
I see beasts,
And I see beneath most masks,
I see .... --- .-.. .-.. --- .--

There in the middle of the confusion,
I saw it,
Naked,
Unafraid,
.- / ... .--. .. .-. .. -
Silent,
No one else seemed to see it,
It looked at me,
It saw right through me,

.- / -.. . . .-.
... .--. .. .-. .. - / --- ..-. / - .... . / ..-. --- .-. . ... -
Slowly looked forward,
And started to walk,
Majestically,
As if it were alone,
No wall could stop it,
For it went...
.-. .. --. .... - / - .-. --- ..- --. ....

Bog Update [2]

This is another Blog update.

As you may have noticed I haven't posted anything in awhile. I am already two weeks late on the "Making of the Goat Mask" Series. This is one of the reasons I am doing this update.

I will do my best to continue to post those, and others. But because of things happening that I didn't anticipated, i now have a lot of difficulties to write the posts and even continue the project in a regular manner. Nor others that I had in mind and some even already started.

Unfortunately, I am only human…

With this said, it may be a while until I post anything again, or at least big things like the continuation of the Goat Mask. I will sometimes try and post small things.

The making of "The Goat" mask [13]

Since I was stuck I was doing other things, other projects but once in awhile thinking of how to get over this problem. I told my ceramics professor about this problem I was having. The good thing is, although he is my ceramics professor, he also works with many different materials, and has a lot of experience in this things.
He told me that I could by an acid, that is very cheap and available almost everywhere, mix it with small metal pieces in order to make that the acid will only corrosive enough clean the metal parts making it easier to solder together.

The acid is muriatic acid, and the metal has to be small zinc plates. This process has to be done outside because of the toxic fumes that come out of it, and in a thick small glass recipient. The process has also to be done very slowly or it will heat up to a point where the glass won't take it, and crack. (I do not have any images of this process, in case you’re wondering.)

But before I would do any of this I wanted to try if it would work. So After talking with my teacher I brought a little bit of the wire and the solder I was using so that I could try with him. Because who knows, maybe it won't work either way… Since he already had a little bit of this acid concoction, it was no problem for him.

And so I did, I once brought a little bit of the wire and the solder. We first heated a wire part with a soldering wire and with a paint-brush wet with the acid cleaned that hot part. Afterwards, while still heating it, we put the two wires together and la little bit of solder. 2-3 Seconds later it was soldered together. It worked.

(I've been searching for a picture, as soon as I find it I'll edit it in this post)

I now had a way to make my horns. I also tested how strong it was by pulling the two wires apart trying to break it. Eventually it broke, bun only with a lot of pressure.


Now I just had to find and buy muriatic acid, and the zinc plates. The zinc plate could be farrelly big, I would cut it to the size I wanted / needed.